So my reality...I struggle...some days more then others. For example, currently I am struggling to be patient and loving mother to a tantrum prone daughter as of late and today ashamed I admit that I didn't succeed! I struggle with not being sad when I hear my sister-in-law talk about seeing her healthy baby boy through an ultra sound as when I saw my babies on an ultra sound, where I was expecting to see a heart beat and a healthy baby I saw two hardly distinguishable babies who didn't form right that weren't alive. I sometime struggle with loneliness and that in a new place I won't make friends or fit in. I struggle with creating a picturesque house that is always spotless. I sometime struggle when getting dressed in the morning and finding something that I feel good in! I struggle with inadequacy on a daily basis in all the roles that I play. I don't always feel like I'm doing everything right to be a great mother, wife, or friend. Lastly, I struggle with having faith more times then not to take that step into the dark and know that everything is going to work out.
Unfortunately that is not the end to my struggles, but I will spare you from knowing all my weaknesses! The point is that I'm learning and growing everyday from the things I struggle with and trials I go through. I find that sometimes one of the things that helps the most is knowing that there are others facing the same things I am. (Whoever you are, lets be friends!) But mostly I'm grateful for the things and people who show me even during my struggle that there are things to be grateful for, which sometimes takes me a while to realize depending on the day!
Anyway, if nothing else then revealing to everyone that I have many problems, this was a good venting post for me. However, I hope that this post did some one good or at least inspires us to remember that through the experiences and struggles we've been through we can help others and we should do just that!